深刻·profundity

好奇我那十日怎么过了吧？
curious for my ten days?
那是一段我人生中最刻骨铭心的一次经验...
that was the most profundity experience in my whole life
一片平静、和谐、安详的土地
a peace, harmony and quiet place




十日内，与世隔绝，家徒四壁地面壁思过，
isolated with the entire world for 10days and just only havin walls with me and that has made me to think and understand where i gone wrong in my life
闭关十日，不能说话、不能有眼神交流
retreat 10days, no talking, no eye contact, because there are not allowed
十天什么都不必做，就只是坐
do nothing but juz sitting in these 10days
这就是我过的“十日内观课程”
this is my life in Vipassana
一段让我成长很多，获益不浅的一段经验
an experience that grow me up





很多人都很惊讶我会去
a lot of people very surprised that i decided to go
因为我都是爱讲话的人
because i am a talkative person
我竟然去闭关十天
but i went to meditation and retreat myself for 10days
不能说话
no talking




我鼓起了很大的勇气，下了很大的决心
i have get up my courages and made a strong decision
自己一个女孩去到关丹这不熟悉的地方
i went to kuantan where not i belong by myself
与世隔绝十天
isolated totally with 10days
长那么大第一次离家那么遥远
tis was my 1st time that i left my home and gone so far
甚至无法联络外界
i couldnt contact any1 somehow




我遇到了很多人
i met a lot of ppl
听见很多故事
i heard many stories
领悟了很多事情
i understand a lot of things
学习了很多智慧
i learnt wisdoms
我要诉说的话
if i explained in words
也许也该用上几天
i may need few days
但是内观的感受真的让我毕生难忘
but Vipassana really made me a memorable lifetime
幸运的是我与法则有机缘
luckily, i know the law of nature/the law of universe
让我在这如此年轻的时候接触它
and i can met it when i am still young
让我相信它的能量的存在
and i have believed the law existance,the power
那种深刻
the profundinity
真的很强烈
itz really a strong feeling





我已经十多年没有抱过我父母亲并跟他们说“我很想念你”类似的话
i already more than 10years that never hugged my parents and tell them "i miss u" tis kind of sentence ever
曾经上过那么多的课程都影响不了我会有如此的举动
i took many course in the past but those couldnt make me to have tis kind of action
但惟独这个改变了我
but tis time is different
因为我真的很想家
because i really miss my home very much
不是想回家，而是很想家
i was not wish to go home but i miss home
一回到家，第一件想做的就是抱他们
when i reached home,the 1st came in to my mind was that i wanna hug them and tel them how much i miss them
当然还有我那两只可爱的小狗狗啦
of course my 2 doggies as well
告诉他们我的生活
i told them my life in Vipassana
我所见、我所闻、我所领悟、我所感受
what i have seen, what i have heard, what i have understood and what i have felt




我真的觉得我身边的每一个人都应该去接触这样东西
i feel that every1 shud go to Vipassana
因为这才是我们人类需要体会的生活艺术
because that is what our human beings need for the art of living
我们都太盲目的生活
we are blindly to live
失去了很多东西
we lose a lot of things
更庞大了自己心底的心魔能力
and strengthen the power of our own "devil" inside our heart
使自己被自己的心控制
and ourselves have been under controlled by our heart
无法控制自己
we are hard 2 control ourselves






但是我印象最深刻的是最后那两天所传授的“慈悲观”
yet, the most deep feeling of me is was the final 2 days in kuantan for the compassion meditation
当时听到的时候
when i heard about it
据说你的爱、慈悲、善念等会从毛孔渗透出来
it said that your love, your compassion and your kindness will be diffused from ur pore
感化你身边周遭的众生
and can touch the beings around u
我当时的心在想“有没有那么的神哦？”
at tht time i was thinking "itz that really so magical?
一坐下来内观的时候
when i sat down to meditate
不到五分钟感觉涌了上来
within 5 mins the feelings have come to me,strongly
整个法堂都弥漫着那种感觉
the whole dhamma hall was covered by the feelings
有一股冲动很想哭的感觉
sum kind of an impulsion that makes ppl wanna cry
那种全身起鸡皮疙瘩，好像很多蚂蚁爬在身上的感觉
sum kind of feeling tht like many ants are climbing all over the body,feel like very "geli"
那一股感觉我真的毕生难忘
and tht strong feeling is the deepest 1 tht i wud not forget, ever




听说我是课程里最年轻的一个
i heard that i was one of the youngest in the course
长辈们都说我很有福报
the elders said that i was so lucky
那么年轻就知道有这种内观的东西
when i still young i aledi knw Vipassana
起初我也不知何谓内观
at the early of time i really dunno what is Vipassana
来了这地方我才知道它的真谛
i came to tis place and i finally know wht it actually is
虽然这与佛教有所关联
although it is similar to the buddist
但是它的课程内容确实是无宗教派的
but the content really is non-religions
因为每一个宗教都是在叫人们做好人
because every religion oso teaching and guiding us to become a good man
不是要你去害人
but not to hurt the others
特别的是
the special one is
内观是让你去体验而才接受
Vipassana is to want u to experience b4 u accept the statement o the law
并非要你因别人说或是某圣人说，抑或经典上说就盲目接受
but not that u have to believe because of sum1 sayin o sum saint sayin o the books sayin and u juz blindly accept it
我明白这道理了
i now understand it
因为我感受到了
because i feel it
心灵净化的过程却是有苦
the progress of purifying mind, itz true tht i felt suffer
但是苦后终有甜
but at the end i get my hapiness






我整个人都释放了很多
i have released myself a lot
很多想法都改变了
many thoughts have changed
很多事情我放下了
many things i have let go
曾经无法原谅的，我学习了原谅
i learnt forgiveness for the past tht i couldnt forgive
曾经放不下的过去，我学会了放下
i learnt letting go for tha past that i couldnt let go
人类总是爱活在过去抑或未来
humans love to live in the past o in future
但是从来就不曾活在当下
but never ever living in present
逃避、逃避、逃避......
we r tryin our best to running away, away, away.....
人类不知道什么是无常
humans dunno wht is impermanence
世界不断在变化，没有永远的
the world, the universe is keep on changing never ends, there is no forever
这一切都是无常的呀
and this is impermanence
内观时候的开示
the discourse of Vipassana
他都说得很生活化，很科学化
he has described it very scientifically and close to our living life
让人更容易体会甚至感触
tis has made us to be more easily to understand
佩服发现内观的觉悟者得厉害
i admire and esteem the founder of Vipassana
因为两千五百年前
because in 2500years ago
科学家都还没发现元微粒子的存在
scientists havent found out the existance of the particles
而他发现了甚至觉悟了一切，整个宇宙都是元微粒子制造的
but he has found out and understood that the entire universe is made up of particles
所以他明白生命的变化，身边的所有变化
he understoond the changing non-stop
更神的是
the most mystical is
内观甚至能穿透观至脊椎骨里
Vipassana can penetrate until into the spinal cord
真的令人咋舌
that very surprising
但是我们都还无法到达那个境界
but we stil couldnt reach tht level
环境不必说
the environment our there
照片也解释了
the photos explained
那是一片如此的仙境
there is a heaven
内观中心已经发散至世界各地
vipassana centers are all around the world now
全世界已有超过据说三十以上的内观中心
it said that at least 30 vipassana centers all around the world
下一回我也许会到国外去
for the next trip of vipassana i think i will go to the other country
最感动的是
the most touching is
我听闻世上已经很多人都知道了内观的存在
i heard that a lot of ppl have known the existance of vipassana
甚至很多人已经开始接触法了
many ppl have in touch with the law of nature
马来西亚的都已经很多人在waiting list了
in malaysia,there are a few of waiting lists
我如此幸运能参与并遇上诸位同修
i was lucky to join n met other meditators
我写到这里也不知道还有什么遗漏的了
i oso dunno what to write anymore
但是我希望我身边的人都会去尝试
but i hope that every1 shud gif themselves a chance to try
或者说那是一种美妙的享受吧
or it can be said as a memorable enjoy
呵呵
hehe
十天不能说话
10 days not allowing to talk
刚开始允许说话时
when it already allowed us to talk
自己真的遇上了语言障碍
i met difficulties at the early of time
有人来跟我说话
sum1 came n talked wif me
自己突然意识不能反应
i suddenly dunno wht to respond
顿在那里几秒才有所反应
i stunned at there few seconds only to get respond
回到这个城市
when i juz came bak to my city
很多technology的东西生疏去
quite a few technologies i have get rusty
整个人迟钝掉
i became slow in reacting
Facebook更是大爆炸
my facebook was exploded
真的是在与世隔绝呀
because i secluded with the whole world
就此停了
here i stopped
往后想起再继续咯~
when i remembered sumthg, i wil update again
愿一切众生得以安享快乐，脱离痛苦^^
may all beings get happiness^^